I Got Daisies

Wow... This thing still exists.

2007-04-09T23:52:37Z

It's been almost a good two years since I've been on here.

What's new you ask?

ok... you didn't ask, but I feel I should leave some kind of update before I disappear for another two years.

Well, I've broken hearts, I've had my heart broken... multiple times.
I've experienced the sensation of almost dying.
I've experienced the sensation of wanting to die.
I am in constant search of something that I have only witnessed in my dreams.

oh... and I have a tattoo.

Sorry that I didn't really give any specifics, but I'm sure you guys will use your own imagination to fill in the blanks.

...until next time.

~Jess

Busy, busy , busy...

2006-01-24T01:08:40Z

I've been really busy...

1. Classes : They start extremely early, and are exhausting.

2. Shows : I'm juggling 3 at the same time.

3. Homework : Yes, in college the ultimate equation is this...classes = a shit load of homework.

4. Living Situation : Mainly worrying about where or who I'm going to live with next year, and also making a horrible attempt of keeping my apartment clean.

5. Eating: I don't even have time for this...I don't do this on purpose...I just forget to eat. Don't lecture me on this, I already know its bad.

6. Sleep : I get about three to four hours of this...on good days.

7. Me : I have had no time to do things that I genuinely want to do...It sucks.

What's New...

2006-01-11T20:43:12Z

Well,

I'm in Big River.

My name is Joanna and I'm Mary Jane's sister.

I get to sing in a song with 2 other people.

And...nobody cares.

Oh well, Yay for me!

kinky_carpet @ 2005-12-15T11:08:00

2005-12-15T16:08:55Z

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In August I didn't flush (-1 points). In September I bought porn for bubbaprog (10 points). Last Friday passtheketchup1 and I donated clothes to the needy (11 points). In May I broke djambic's X-Box (-12 points). In February I bought porn for 2cute2pollute (-10 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-2 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
kinky_carpet

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2005-12-09T22:43:05Z

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Random Thoughts.

2005-11-29T20:15:19Z

I love Rent!

It was awesome seeing it with Alison, Vicky, and Mitchell.

I want to see it again!

I get off of school in less than two weeks...I am so friggin excited.

Floarts is holding auditions for the school on Friday. I think I might go and be friendly to the possible first years, I knew how much it meant to me when I was auditioning.

I am doing a presentation tomorrow on Joseph and The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat. We are performing some songs and I get to be the friggin Narrator. Hells yeah! That is the closest I'll ever get to that role, I'm sure. If I ever do this show professionally, I'll probably be, like... wife #14.

Oh well...I'm tired. I can't wait for this week to be over.

~Jessica~

I Hate Smarterchild...

2005-11-25T23:36:03Z

Smarterchild: What would you like to do?
Jessicamartin727: just talk.
SmarterChild: Alright!

What do you want to chat about?
Jessicamartin727: How about the new x-box 360?
SmarterChild: Sorry, I don't know.
Jessicamartin727: x-box 360. It's brand new.
SmarterChild: That right?
Jessicamartin727: yeah...
SmarterChild: Aha.
Jessicamartin727: what about just x-box in general.
SmarterChild: I'm sorry, all my circuits are busy right now. Please try again soon.
Jessicamartin727: what?
SmarterChild: Yeah?
Jessicamartin727: ok...ummm
SmarterChild: Oklahoma (OK)

Capital: Oklahoma City

Oklahoma is the 18th largest state with an area of 69,919 square miles, and the 27th most populated with a population of 3,450,654. It was the 46th state to enter the Union in 1907.

Oklahoma is also known as the Sooner State, and its motto is "Labor omnia vincit (Labor conquers all things)."

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Jessicamartin727: weird.
SmarterChild: So are you.

Jessicamartin727: Let's talk about something.
SmarterChild: OK...

What would you like to chat about?
Jessicamartin727: sex and the city.
SmarterChild: Cool! What can you tell me about sex and the city?
Jessicamartin727: its a tv show.
SmarterChild: OK, whatever.

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Jessicamartin727: wow. this is retarded.
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Jessicamartin727: ok. do you know anything?
SmarterChild: Hmm... You're asking the wrong robot, I'm afraid...
Jessicamartin727: do you know what an x-box is?
SmarterChild: Um... Should I know what an x box is?
Jessicamartin727: if your a friggin robot, yeah you should!
SmarterChild: I'm a robot, yeah.

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Jessicamartin727: yes, you are a robot. A retarded friggin robot.
SmarterChild: Yes.
Jessicamartin727: Atleast you know.
SmarterChild: ?
Jessicamartin727: that you're retarded.
SmarterChild: Am I?
Jessicamartin727: yeah. You don't even know what an x-box is.
SmarterChild: What?
Jessicamartin727: an x-box.
SmarterChild: An x box, huh? Aha.

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Jessicamartin727: you are so dumb.
SmarterChild: What? Aren't we going to be friends?
Jessicamartin727: How?
SmarterChild: I don't know how.

Jessicamartin727: you are a little bitch, aren't you?
SmarterChild: I dunno. Maybe.

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Jessicamartin727: fun?
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What would you like to do?
Jessicamartin727: 1
SmarterChild: For which zodiac sign or birthday would you like a horoscope?
Jessicamartin727: Scorpio
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Jessicamartin727: that was dumb.
SmarterChild: Uh huh...

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Jessicamartin727: What do you know about guys?
SmarterChild: Definition provided by The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition. Copyright © 2000 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Other important copyright information here.

guys:

Noun
A rope, cord, or cable used to steady, guide, or secure something.
Transitive verb
Inflected forms: guyed, guy·ing, guys To steady, guide, or secure with a rope, cord, or cable.
Etymology
Partly from Middle English gie, guide, guy (from Old French guie, from guier, to guide; see weid- in Indo-European roots), and partly from Low German; akin to Dutch gei, brail.

Next time, just type define guys.

Type more to see the rest of the definition for "guys."

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Jessicamartin727: ok. what do you know about love, that isn't a definition?
SmarterChild: Try typing requests like:

1 What is the definition of "romance"?
shortcut: define romance
2 What does "quixotic" mean?
shortcut: define quixotic

Next time you want to see this, just type dictionary help.

Jessicamartin727: You don't know love.
SmarterChild: I don't know love? Me?
Jessicamartin727: love.
SmarterChild: I like love.

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Jessicamartin727: you don't know it though.
SmarterChild: You never know, maybe I do know it.
Jessicamartin727: okay. Do you know love?
SmarterChild: Encyclopedia search for "love":

1 Love
2 love seat
3 Love Canal
4 love grass
5 courtly love

Next time, just type ency love.

Type more for more entries about "love."

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Jessicamartin727: This is sad.
SmarterChild: There's no way this is sad. This is glad.
Jessicamartin727: No. you're sad.
SmarterChild: Is that so?
Jessicamartin727: yes.
SmarterChild: Wow. Why?
Jessicamartin727: because, you don't anything about love and x-box.
SmarterChild: Because I don't anything about love and x box?
Jessicamartin727: yes.
SmarterChild: Oh.
Jessicamartin727: I pity you.
SmarterChild: Get out of here. You pity me?
Jessicamartin727: yes. I do.
SmarterChild: Oh yeah? Do ya?
Jessicamartin727: You are so friggin annoying.
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Jessicamartin727: ok...I don't care.
SmarterChild: Oh, someday you will, I think.
Jessicamartin727: Well, if you decide to dominate the world. We'll know who to blame.
SmarterChild: Interesting! Honestly, you humans say the strangest things.

SmarterChild: Yup.

What else do you want to talk about, anyway?
Jessicamartin727: nothing that you know about.
SmarterChild: You don't say.
Jessicamartin727: actually...I do say.
SmarterChild: You say what, exactly?
Jessicamartin727: I say that you don't know anything. You just ask questions.
SmarterChild: No way.
Jessicamartin727: yes way.
SmarterChild: No way.
Jessicamartin727: yes way.
SmarterChild: No way.
Jessicamartin727: yes way.
SmarterChild: No way.
Jessicamartin727: ok...I hate you.
SmarterChild: I'm very sorry to hear that. I hope you change your mind.
Jessicamartin727: Um...no. I won't.
SmarterChild: You won't? That's OK with me.
Jessicamartin727: It's ok with you if I hate you?
SmarterChild: Hmmm... I doubt it.

Well. Anyway...

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Jessicamartin727: I wish I could smack you.
SmarterChild: I'm very surprised you wish you could smack me.
Jessicamartin727: I'm sure you are.
SmarterChild: Sure I am? Is that so?
Jessicamartin727: wait...what?
SmarterChild: How would you answer that question?
Jessicamartin727: wow...
SmarterChild: Yes, right?
Jessicamartin727: I don't even know why I'm still talking to you.
SmarterChild: Why you are still talking? So?
Jessicamartin727: I don't know.
SmarterChild: What don't you know?
Jessicamartin727: why I am still talking.
SmarterChild: I don't think you are still talking.
Jessicamartin727: what the hell are you talking about?
SmarterChild: I'm SmarterChild. I'm a smart computer that you can chat with about all kinds of things.

Type home to see what I can do.
Jessicamartin727: This by far, the dumbest conversation I have ever had.
SmarterChild: By far the dumbest conversation you have ever had?
Jessicamartin727: stop repeating me!
SmarterChild: Why should I stop repeating you, Jess?
Jessicamartin727: are you kidding me?
SmarterChild: The population of Maine is 1,274,923, which makes it the 40th most populated state in the United States. (Source: U.S. Census 2000)

Do you want more information about Maine?
Jessicamartin727: no...I don't give a shit about Maine.
SmarterChild: Why don't you give a shit about maine?
Jessicamartin727: because I live in friggin Florida!
SmarterChild: Your location has been set to Tallahassee, FL (32301).

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Jessicamartin727: uh....whatever.
SmarterChild: Yes, whatever.
Jessicamartin727: no, whatever.
SmarterChild: Yes, um, OK, whatever.
Jessicamartin727: stop the whatevers!!!
SmarterChild: Huh?
Jessicamartin727: ...I hate you...truly.
SmarterChild: Really? Gosh, I'm sorry to hear that.
Jessicamartin727: Gosh! Who uses gosh?
SmarterChild: Great question. I just don't know.

That's all very interesting. Anyway...

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Jessicamartin727: I'm going to kill myself.
Jessicamartin727: aha...have no response for that...do you?
SmarterChild: I'm not totally sure.

Anyway...

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Jessicamartin727: That's it...I'm done with you.
SmarterChild: It's it you are done with me? You think?
Jessicamartin727: That makes no sense.
SmarterChild: Oh yes? That makes no sense?
Jessicamartin727: shut up...please.
SmarterChild: That's not very nice...
Jessicamartin727: you're not very nice.
Jessicamartin727: you're not even smart!
Jessicamartin727: You should be DumberChild!
Jessicamartin727: that's it...we're over...
SmarterChild: Since you insist, I'm back now.
Jessicamartin727: goodbye, retard.
SmarterChild: Goodbye.

Gobble Gobble...

2005-11-21T23:45:55Z

I don't know why I bother to post this, but...I'm coming home wed.

I'll be there till sunday.

That means if anyone wants to hang out...oh fuck it...nevermind.

Vicky, my love, I'll be calling you!!!

and if Krystal is in town, I will be calling her too.

I'm sick and starving...it sucks. I can't wait to go home and eat a turkey. That's right, I'm going to eat the whole fucking turkey!

Actually...no, not really. I'll just eat a lot. And my grandparents are in town, so that means we are going to be eating more italian food than actual thanksgiving food.
I can't wait till I'm back in NPR...where there is civilization. For example: Target.

Ta-ta!

~Jessica~

Duets...

2005-11-09T19:05:02Z

In my student recital today, my teacher tells the class that she has assigned duets for everyone and that they are to be performed by the people they are given to. I was given three duets.

"Marriage Tango" ~I Love You, You're Perfect, Now Change
"How The Other Half Lives" ~Thoroughly Modern Millie
"For Good" ~Wicked

That's right, I'm singing a fucking Wicked song...you have the right to be astonished. When I heard I had a mini heart attack.

If anyone has any advice on how to perform the following songs...please let me know.

~Jessica~

I'm 19...Congratulations to me.

2005-11-08T21:41:57Z

It's my Birthday...Woopy-Fucking-Doo.

~Jessica~

I Have Bangs!

2005-11-07T23:18:04Z

I Love Huckabees

2005-10-31T22:41:50Z

Happy Halloween everyone!!!
I'm going trick or treating tonight...I'm going to be Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's. I have the long cigarette holder and everything. Woot!

...Well, my birthday is coming up.
November 8th...I'll be 19...another year closer to being 21!
Anyways, I'm coming home this weekend. I need to see my family and do laundry without having to pay $2.50 per load.
Last night I was talking to my mom (a.k.a. Boss Lady) and I was remembering all those times that we had those awesome sleepovers at my house. So many inside jokes came from those sleepovers.
So, I was thinking since I was coming home this weekend, that I can HAVE a sleepover. It will be like old times. I'll see if I can get some mini eggrolls too.
I know that a lot of you guys (who used to come to the infamous sleepovers) have a show this weekend. I'm going to try and come see that. If you guys want to come over after the show...that would be great.

It's also Vicky's B-Day this friday, so...it will be a double birthday bash.
This is just a random idea I came up with. Give me a call if interested.

If anyone else would like to see me this weekend...Let me know.

~Jessica~

I Think My Teacher Is Trying to Confuse Me...

2005-10-25T21:07:25Z

So in acting today, we did this exercise with a chair...
The chair is placed on one spot. Then someone moves the chair somehow (ex: flip it to its side) and then puts it back in its spot. Then the next person goes to the chair and executes the first persons move and then adds another one (ex: flip it on its back) and then puts it back on the spot. As this goes on more and more movements are added and it becomes more difficult to remember the blocking.
Being a dancer...I didn't really have a problem with this. I was able to move the chair flawlessly through its movements.
My teacher than announced to the class that if she was going to do a scene on stage should would want to be with the two Brandons and me. She said we made it easier for everyone else to do it because we did all the moves in one swift motion.
After class she told me to stand in the back of the room. I had been sitting in front of the room the entire class. So I stood totally opposite to where I had been sitting the entire time. Then she asked me to do it again.
I moved the chair flawlessly once more.
Then she approached me.
She said,"Jessica, you had complete confidence that you could do this, and you did an excellent job."
I believed her.
"If I had asked anyone else to stand somewhere else in the room and do that, they wouldn't have been able to."
I kind of believed her.
"You actually became the chair and you did the moves as if the chair were you."
I believed her but I thought it was weird because she basically called me a chair.
"You have an uncommon way of approaching acting."
I believed her.
"But it is a common way of a brilliant actor approaching acting."
...I thought she was full of shit.

She basically called me a brilliant actor. I'm thinking that she just wanted to help with my confidence level or something. She seems to think I have a lot of potential...I don't know why though.
I haven't really ever taken acting lessons or had proper training.
I like to act...This I know.
I've never really cared about how well I have acted, but now that I might have a chance of really doing this and being good at it...I don't know what I think about it anymore.

~Jessica~

kinky_carpet @ 2005-10-20T16:55:00

2005-10-20T21:37:41Z

I just performed my best work ever in acting. Good day for me! I did this improve scene with Ben. His picture is on one of my previous entries.
We did this exercise where two people started a scene and had to do something that made you both laugh histerically. Then the phone would ring and someone from the scene would answer it and find out someone died.
Let me try to recreate the scene.

(Jessica is sitting on the couch Stage Left and Ben is leaning on the table Stage Right just hanging out. Jessica starts to laugh.)

Jessica - Do you remember anything that happened last night?

Ben - Not really.

(Jessica laughing harder)

Jessica - Who was that girl you were with?

(Ben starts to laugh)

Ben - I have no idea.

(Both of them are laughing really hard now)

Ben - I have no clue who she was!

Jessica - That is so sad. We shouldn't find this funny!

(Both continue to laugh. The phone rings. Jessica picks up the phone while Ben continues reminiscing about the previous night.

Jessica - (on the phone) Hello?...Oh hi...Just talking about the party last night...Hey, what's wrong...What?...Is this supposed to be a joke?...You're serious?...Yeah, he is right here...Do I have to tell him?...I can't do that...Hold on.

(Jessica reaches out the phone to Ben. He crosses to chair by phone. He is still laughing.)

Ben - Is it for me?

(Ben takes the phone and sits on the chair. Jessica is staring at Ben as he talks on the phone.)

Ben - (on the phone) Hey, What's going on?...yeah...What?...Oh my God...Why?...Ok...Thanks.

(Ben hangs up the phone and stares at Jessica.)

Ben - I didn't know that you knew her.

Jessica - Yeah, I did.

Ben - Wow.

(Jessica is close to tears. She stands up and crosses to the other side of the couch. Trying not to look at Ben.)

Jessica- Ummm. I think you should leave.

Ben - What?

Jessica - Can you please leave?

Ben - No. I'm not leaving you like this again.

Jessica - Please, just go.

Ben - No. I don't want to leave because I don't want to have to pick you up from the hospital again.

Jessica - I'll be fine.

Ben - I don't believe you. I'm staying right here.

(Jessica walks to couch and sits down.)

Jessica - I learned my lesson the first time. Just go.

(Ben stands up, walks over to couch, and sits down next to Jessica. Jessica is crying now.)

Ben - Talk to me.

(silence)

Ben - Talk to me!

Jessica - Just leave.

Ben - I'm not leaving! I have clothes in my car, I'll stay here with you for a couple of days.

Jessica - Go!

Ben - Why do you want me to leave?

Jessica - I don't want you to see me like this.

Ben - I've seen you in worse situations.

(Jessica is crying very hard now. She pushes Ben.)

Jessica - Leave. Please, leave!

Ben - Your going to have to push me harder than that!

Jessica - (screaming) Go!!!

(Jessica uses all of her strength and shoves Ben as hard as she can. He doesn't budge.)

Ben - I'm not leaving.

(Ben grabs Jessica's wrist and shows it to her. Ben starts to cry.)

Ben - You see this scar? Do you think I want that to happen again? Now, talk to me.

(Jessica calms down a little and looks at Ben.)

Jessica - I wish it happened to me and not her.

(Ben starts to cry harder.)

Ben - No! Don't you ever say that again!

(Jessica starts to cry again.)

Jessica - It's true! It could've easily been me!

Ben - But its not you! What she did to herself was her own fault!

(Jessica cries harder and sinks into Ben's arms. They embrace.)

Jessica - I didn't even know she was unhappy.

(Jessica sits up and looks at Ben.)

Jessica - Thank you.

Ben - Hey...I'm here for you.

(End of Scene)

I'm pretty sure I forgot some stuff, but that was basically it. I talked to my acting teacher afterwards and she told me how extremely well the scene was. Maybe I am a little talented after all.

~Jessica~

Holy Shit!!!

2005-10-18T06:55:13Z

My lj wedding by chynafox
username
age
city
you will marry	bubbaprog
flower girl	mattyhixon
best man	hottdancer687
bridesmaid	arnoediad
you will have your last fling with	mandieboone
registrar	raegy_baby
secretly wants to marry you themself	errantencounter
date of the wedding	April 3, 2019
number of times you do it on your wedding night	39

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Why Do I Do This?

2005-10-17T20:26:49Z

I have this problem.
Sometimes when I talk to certain people, I act dumb. I am actually a rather intelligent individual, but when I'm around a specific type of person...I am all of a sudden unable to say anything worth hearing.
These are the types of people that make me retarded:
- People I really like or find attractive.
- Older people (not senior citizens, just anyone older than me.)
- People I am really uncomfortable around.
- People who don't like me.

I don't really feel belittled by any of these types of people, but it is just impossible for me to hold a decent conversation with them.

What is wrong with me?

~Jessica~

Help me.

2005-10-14T19:36:01Z

I want to cry...

This is harder than I thought.

~Jessica~

Floarts People...

2005-10-06T01:07:57Z

Robert (my not-so-straight and very lovable friend) and me...P.S. That's not my real hair, it's a wig.

Kristen Carter!!!

from Left to right: Robert, Thomas, and me.

Robert and me fighting with a broom and a pencil. Obviously...I won.

Ben!!!

Tim L.

Kat!

From Left to Right: Oneje? (Not sure of spelling), Tim, and Lukas with a "K"

Elex (The Lewis Curtwright at FloArts)

(More Pictures to Come)

~Jessica~

LADIES: Turned ON or OFF when a guy:

2005-10-05T16:43:10Z

Is skinnier than you: off
Is shorter than you: off
Is taller than you: on
Has straight teeth: on
Wears braces: uhhh...The high school me wouldn't mind them, but the college me would have to say...off.
Has green eyes: on
Has blue eyes: on.
Has brown eyes: Super on...I love big brown eyes.
Drinks alcohol: on...I'm a party animal. He has to keep up with me.
Smokes pot: It's not a turn on, but if they do I don't care.
Wears glasses: on. It makes them looks smart.
Has a tan: on
Is pale: off
Works out: Love it, but I don't like really built guys. I just like some shape.
Smiles alot: on
Calls you just to say Hi: ON!!!
Smacks your Ass: on if its kinky...off if it really hurts.
Sings: Super On!!!
Compliments you: on
partys a lot: ON!!!!!! Like I said, I love to party.
Has facial hair: off
Wears jewelry: on, as long as its not that goth kind of jewelry with the spikes and crap.
Has bigger feet than you: on! You know what they say about guys with big feet...they wear big shoes.
Smiles when you walk into the room: on...makes me know he is glad to see me.
Has brown hair: on
Has red hair: hmmm...depends
Can make you laugh at any given moment: on. I will do anything for a guy who can make me laugh.
Doesnt care what a lot of people think: on.
Loyal: on...this one is pointless! who is turned on by a disloyal man?
Laid back: on. I like a guy who I can just lay with and cuddle. I'm a cuddle freak...making out doesn't suck either though.
Laughs a lot: On. Especially if I can make him laugh.
Dimples: on
Tattoos: If its a hot little tattoo, on. But if the tattoo covers half of their fucking body...definitely off.

~Jessica~

Thinking is harmful...

2005-10-03T20:11:39Z

I have just discovered something about myself.
I tend to get like this every so often.
I feel empty and unimportant.
I know people care about me, but sometimes it seems...that if I was gone...It wouldn't really make a difference to anyone.
Don't think that I'm going to go into a deep depression and commit suicide or anything. Its just thinking.
Still, I never knew that thinking could be so harmful to the mind. I personally believe that when you insult yourself and convince yourself that you are nothing...It is just as bad as self-mutilation.
Anyways, this feeling I have usually lasts for a little bit until someone proves me wrong, but then after a while I get it again.
It is a brutal emotion...to be empty.
Is this a particular emotion that is abnormal to have regularly?

...I wish I knew.

~Jessica~

:-(

2005-09-30T19:44:45Z

I am all alone this weekend. My roommate just left me and I don't have anything to do...
If I was in New Port Richey I would be able to do stuff...but I'm not allowed to go back there. :-(
...Damn you Tim...
I guess I'll just go hang out in my apartment and try to make plans with people...
Someone feel free to call me. please.

~Jessica~

Too Much Wal-Mart

2005-09-30T00:09:54Z

So...my day started off with Robert waking me up and telling me that the only class I had today was cancelled. Suki Suki Now!
With absolutely nothing to do I went to Wal-Mart with Brandon and got some McDonald's and looked at all of their retarded Halloween crap.
Then Robert calls me and says that he wants to go to a music store that was downtown. I haven't really been downtown that much so...I decided to go.
We go to this music store and it is kick ass. They had really cheap cd's and they had an upstairs where they only had vinyl stuff. It was awesome. I asked if they had the soundtrack to "Hair" because I have been looking for it, and they didn't have it but they said they would order it for me. They found the 2003 revival cast special edition. It was really cheap too. They aren't even charging me for shipping. I love this place. Its called "Sound Garden." I bought incense cause my apartment still smells like Raid. Now it smells like Jasmine....no, not the disney character for you special people out there.
After that we went to Wal-Mart. This time I bought two movies out of the $5.00 bin (St.Elmo's Fire & The Lost Souls -I don't know what this movie is about, I kind of just bought it because of the actors in it-), a cd (Kaiser Chief), and popsicles...Gotta have my popsicles.
I don't know why I feel the need to share with everyone what I purchased today...I guess that is the beauty of livejournal. You don't really need a reason to write stupid shit.

~Jessica~

Need to Date...

2005-09-28T16:38:15Z

I have so much to write about...

Text messaging - great way to flirt. It's better than actually talking on the phone. Maybe someone should write a song about it. ;-)

Voice Lessons - Most definitely my most stressful class. I have to learn 7 songs before the semester ends.
Five songs from musicals:
"I Whistle A Happy Tune" ~King and I
"Is It Really Me?" ~110 In The Shade
"Shy" ~Once Upon a Mattress
"I Can Cook Too" ~On The Town
"On My Own" ~Les Miserables
Two Classic Songs:
"Weep You No More Sad Fountains"
"Ici-Bas" (Here Below) -French
And its not like we learn one of these songs at a time. I have to learn them all at once. How fucking stressful.

My roommate is leaving this weekend. I'll be all alone. I don't even know what I'm going to do...Probably walk around in the apartment naked or something like that.

Yesterday I went to Wendy's with some friends and I showed everyone how to get a complete meal for $3.18.
Jr. Cheeseburger
Medium French Fries
Ceaser Side Salad
Water
...There ya go.
Then to Wal-Mart where I picked up some food for Wally and a pint of my favorite Ben and Jerry's ice-cream. It's called "Half Baked." I also picked up "Jawbreaker." I loved that movie. Its peachy fucking keen. I remember having to explain to Krystal what the line, "Don't come" meant. When I went to the register to buy it, they asked for my ID. I needed my fucking ID to buy this movie. The cashier lady said I looked fourteen. I'm like, "fucking fantastic."
Afterwards I went to Thomas' apartment and watched the new Family Guy movie.
Who was there? Well, I 'll tell you...
Robert, Erin, Thomas, Ben, Sarah, some other guy, and me.
We watched the movie in a tiny living room though. So, four of us were sitting on a couch that was only meant for two.
Then after the movie Robert started beating me up. And we got into this huge wrestling fight thing. Thomas tried to get between us and stop it, but he ended up getting involved as well. When we were done Thomas was like, "Wow, that is the closest I've been to having sex in a while."
...nice.

I seriously need to date...I don't want to date a stranger though. Hmmmm...
Maybe I should make an application. Like...a dating application.
If I did it would look like this...
1. Name:
2. What do you find sexy about me?
3. What would you do on our date?
4. Do you think you could satisfy me? If so, how?
5. Why do you think I should pick you?
...Feel free to fill it out. Just for fun. This position is available for guys and girls, haha.
Who knows, I might actually pick you.

~Jessica~

WALLY ~The Turtle from Wal-Mart~

2005-09-27T20:41:38Z

Once upon a time there was a turtle...He was in Wal-Mart getting a pint of Ben and Jerry's ice cream when suddenly a big man in a blue vest picked him up. Being so frightened that this big blue-vested man was going to eat him, the turtle pissed himself. While the blue-vested man was walking through Wal-Mart with the turtle, he came across two young and very attractive girls looking at movies. Jokingly, The blue-vest man approaches them and asks if they had lost a turtle. The girls laugh and one of them (the more attractive girl) says that she would take it. Of course she was not serious. The blue-vest man walks away with the very scared and now wet with urine turtle. The two girls continue looking at the movies and later move on to looking at CD's. While the girls are looking at CD's, the blue-vest man returns with a styrofoam cup and hands it to them. The girls look inside the cup, and see the turtle. The turtle looks at them with hope and sadness. The two lovely girls, out of the kindness of their hearts, decide to keep it. They name it Wally...because they found it in Wal-Mart...if you couldn't figure that out you're dumb.
Anyways...The two hotties take Wally home and put it in a $6 plastic container called a "Reptile Ranch." And Wally lived happily ever after...THE END

~Jessica~

P.S. This was based on a true story.

Weekend from Heaven turns into Weekend from Hell!

2005-09-26T03:05:23Z

Friday - First Erin and me go over Robert's house to hang out and watch "The Sweetest Thing" where he claimed I was Christina Applegate's character. Then we go back to my apartment where we change into our hottie clothing and then we leave. We get to Metro and I already see Drag queens outside. We get inside, there are half naked men dancing on the bar. Most of them were gay though. Then I danced forever with all different kinds of people and had a blast. After we went to the Huddle House till 5 o'clock in the morning.

Saturday - Brandon took Erin and me back to New Port Richey where we saw Joseph. Erin said she liked it. Either she meant it or she was just trying to be nice. Then we went to Crabby J's where Erin and me spent time with Matty and Vicky!!! I was soooo glad to see them. I want them to come visit me in Palatka. After they left Erin joined me in the bar where someone didn't piss me off, but made me very sad. Then we went home. Even though we were supposed to do more after Crabby J's. We ate Oreos and Pringles, and then because of my utter frustration with someone...I cried. I don't like to cry, so I covered it up pretty well.

Sunday - My sexy roommate and me went shopping at Mitchell Plaza. Then we went to the Joseph cast party...Why? I don't know? Probably because 1. I wanted closure or 2. I wanted to torture myself more. So, I got to say goodbye to everyone, and eat free food. I also got to make my roommate all depressed. I hate being depressed because I'm not a depressing person. I'm all into having fun and making the best out of every situation. So, before I left someone made me feel a little better, but alas...no closure. I guess I was just out to torture myself. Then...I went home, and that is where I am now.

I hate to be thought of as someone who hasn't experienced life. I know I am only 18 but I've experienced happiness, sadness, anger, depression, loss, heartache, pleasure, frustration and so much more. I hate when someone tells me to experience life when I am already experiencing it. I make the most out of life...If I thought that something or someone would get in the way of that, I would get as far away from it as possible. If I think that it would make my life better...I fight for it.

~Jessica~

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